The Life Changer, 2018!
Wow! 2018 was such a weird year for me *for lack of a better word*. Although, my Instagram was one way I kept in touch but even I know that I could have done much better and for that I feel a little bad for myself.
In the absence of a pity party, let’s do a review of 2018 and make some affirmations for 2019, shall we?
The year started with a huge change in enviroment as I moved back to Lagos from Jigawa where I served for a year.
The first three months were such a breeze that I really didn’t keep track of how it went. I got me a job that I didn’t last a week at because it wasn’t working for me, stayed home with my parents for the most part and eventually got another on the fourth month.
Two months as I worked on my new job, I got the best opportunity of the year which was my Wilson’s ambassador program that lasted 3 months in all. I really have no idea what 2019 has in store for me but I do hope I get more of such opportunities and collaborations.
Let’s say I still have a little fear when it comes to pitching to brands. Although, I know it won’t be easy but I hope I conquer that fear early in the year.
Got married to the man that makes me the happiest on the 6th month and I can gratefully say it’s been a different journey since then.
As much as I’d love to talk about marriage as many of you have asked, I feel like I’ve only been married a minute and it really isn’t my forte to talk about things I’m not so well grounded on.
So, apologies to you guys that asked about my married life in my last Instagram poll, I’m not up to that task yet.
For those that asked about how I knew my husband was the one; hmmm, I still can’t answer that too because I also don’t know and I genuinely think it’s something you don’t really know but more of something you ease into and understand that it’s either what you want or not.
2018 was my year of mental intelligence in some ways. I couldn’t totally control things the way I wanted but what made me happy the most was being able to understand what I was going through at every point in time and not letting the negative comsume me too much.
There were moments I went to bed in tears, woke up angry and for no reason at that. I had moments that I felt really low in my life and called myself a failure. These moments for me were the hardest to get out of because I really had no hope in myself and that was what led to my blog hiatus.
I constantly battled with redefining my purpose in life, with being dependent on my spouse, not achieving goals, having no zeal whatsoever to pursue my dreams and also tired of works that didn’t get the recognition I’d hope for and the pay I’d love.
2018 was really hard on my career; I couldn’t even say I had one but I know I kept hanging in there.
Another major enlightenment I got was from friendship. I can say I’ve really grown in my friendships and confidently said no to relationships that didn’t serve any significant purpose anymore.
It was hard finding out that I didn’t have much real people around me and instead, I just knew a lot of people. I tried making excuses at some points but finally got where I had to kick everyone out without caring. Some friendships have died from that and I do not regret at all.
Last year was a major lesson on my relationships because much better, I now know how to manage people and that growth, I am so grateful for. To the friends that didn’t let me get far without being there for me, I’m really grateful.
Family! Let’s just say I value family even more. After realizing that I didn’t have much real friends. I felt really alone at some point and that made me fall back to the only people that are always there for me; my family.
My mother in particular was a major strength and contributor although she might not know this.
I also made the most valuable friendships last year and I hope they bloom even better this year. There are people with pure hearts who would give everything to make you happy, I hope you find them and keep them.
To my career again; the greatest loss I felt last year tbh. I stopped calling myself a blogger at some point and forgot how to write, my picture content wasn’t it and even though I had all I needed to make things work, it just never did. I tried taking a job but didn’t get a response.
It hurt me a little bit but I’m over it now.
Financially; my 2018 was a wreck. Barely had money of my own because responsibilities where more than I’ve ever been saddled with. Started a business here and went on hiatus also, although I’m back on it now. I’d appreciate your support and patronage. *winks*
I was unable to spend on frivolities but it was also a year of financial literacy and stability for me. I think I got better with managing money and planning; all thanks to my husband because that dude can plan a lifetime in advance.
Stability! The most stability I got from everything is all thanks to my husband also. He’s much more organised when it comes to planning about life unlike me who is a spontaneous life enjoying human. I really suck at planning.
The greatest gift of the year however is being an expectant mom. Journaling the whole process is probably the only wholehearted writing I was able to do last year. I felt a lot of things, I still do and that’s an entire blog post anyway.
In all, 2018 was a year of so much growth and firsts of a lot of things for me. It was beautiful, ugly, depressing, surprising, exciting and a whole lot more than I can express. It was a major life changer for me.
This new year I plan to be more daring, intentional, loving, selfish, understanding and most importantly hold myself accountable for every of my actions. This baby girl only wants to catch flights, job offers and new opportunities.
To fall more in love, give more love and create more, get better in my religion, figure out how and actually be a good mom.
I don’t want to be a superwoman. I simply want to live life, enjoy it and grow like I never have and I want this to be my breakthrough as I hit the big 25.
This isn’t much of a comeback but take me not as I am but with hope that I’d get better. Cheers………… to more blogposts.
Do share with me below how your 2018 went and your plans for the new year.
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